Warning!

Warning! Warning! Warning! 

I have completed Day 3 of my stimulation calendar. I go tomorrow for blood work, then back again Wednesday. I'm not sure when from there. However; I am noticing some changes in already. I'm not complaining, just sharing so you can laugh along with me, because I'm definitely laughing at myself these days. 

Here's a list (I love lists!):

1. I am sensitive. 

2. My definition of sensitive: I cry over anything, get emotional over anything, and may get angry just over spilling milk. 

3. I am HOT! 

The it's 52 degrees outside and I'm wearing capris, flip flops, and a sleeveless shirt to church type of hot. Oh! And I'm running the A.C. 

4. I am more alert. (I'm sure this has to do with the steroid.)

5. My appetite has grown over night (Again, I blame the steroid).

 Let me explain... I ordered a bowl of steamed broccoli and a Triple Decker Club from O'Charley's Saturday... 

AND ATE EVERY SINGLE BITE!

I smile at this list, because I know it will bring a blessing. I just feel so blessed to have the opportunity to go through this procedure. I know God is going to bless Lance and I; and I can't wait to see how He's going to do it. I give all praise to Him for making this possible. 

Made for Me

I love, love the new Toby Mac c.d., and I love, love his song "Made for Me". Here is my favorite line/stanza.....

But something tells me we’re gonna be OK  

‘Cause she was made for me You gave ‘er to me 

I said I’d hold on loose but I so wanna squeeze you 

Just right for me and for the life of me 

I can’t believe I get to call her mine

  And she was made for me Made for me

  And she was made for me Made for me

As you all know (who journey along with me) Lance and I have taken the road towards IVF. Well, we are getting close to so many new exciting things, which I don't want to share right now. But, there is one thing I want to share. God made Lance for me and me for him. We knew this from the first time, or first few times we met. We continue to learn more about how we were made for each other as we grow as a couple with each other and with God. 

This "trying to have a baby" experience over the past 3.5 years has been an emotional roller-coaster as anyone can imagine or knows from experience. We are at a peak right now with everything good going on. What's most amazing is that it's all in God's timing and I'm glad it's working out that way. 

The scripture came to my heart this morning from Psalm 139: 13-14:

For it was You who

created my inward

parts; 

You knit me together in my mother's womb. 

I will praise You

because I have been 

remarkably and 

wonderfully made.

Like I said God continues to show us that we were made for one another. Let me just say, without sharing too much information at this time, that I am now 100% sure God made Lance and I for each other. 

29 years ago before Lance was even "knit in [his] mother's womb" and 27 years ago before I was "knit in my mother's womb", God knew. He knew that Lance and I would fall in love. He knew we would have to take this road towards having a family. He knew that we would need each other. He made us for each other before we were "knit in [our mothers'] wombs." 

He is an amazing God and I am glad He is the author of our life together. Looking forward to BIG things in the near future! 

~ Becka

Top of the World

A Carter's song from the oh... 70s?... comes to mind today:

"I'm just sitting on top of the world." 

The first time I heard this song I was in the 4th grade at my best friend Kelly's house in Florence, MS. (Man, we had some fun times together.) It comes to mind today, because I feel like I'm on top of the world. 

My "on top of the world" list: 

1. My husband comes home in 3 days and a wake up!

2. I have completed my Math lessons for NEXT week! (These always seem to take me the longest!)

3. Baked (not burned) cookies.

4.  Completed all my assignments for Week 1 of my class this semester.

 5. One month and 2 days until we start everything with the BR Dr!! 

Feeling overly blessed today! Now on to ELA, Science, and S.S. plans; and cookies and coffee! 

Ode to 27

On the eve of my 27th birthday I reflect on how much my life has changed in the past 7 years as I went from the "teen" years to being a "real adult". The year I turned 20 is also the year I "screwed my head on straight" according to my Papaw. Why? Because I met the love of  my life! Lance has definitely made the past 7 years of my life amazing! (Technically we met in March of that year.)

The verse comes to mind from Proverbs 22:6

"Train up a child in the way he should go,

And when he is old he will not depart from it."

I'm in no way OLD! I'm only pushing 30 and 30 is NO LONGER "old"! (I don't even think 50 is old anymore!)

 I am celebrating the fact that I have grown in the past 7 years, all thanks to the christian raising from my parents & the love of a husband I never thought was possible.

In this year I am excited, because I am healthier than I have been in the past 7 years, in love more than I could ever imagine, and grasping the understanding that it's not my will, but HIS.

So, here's to 27. May it be a great year and bring many new opportunities!

(My cake that my love made last year) 

Delightful

One of my favorite verses is

"Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart." 

{Psalm 37:4}

So often I only focus or meditate on the last past of that verse "and He shall give you the desires of your heart" and neglect to understand the first part of it. The past couple of days I have been trying to understand what it means to "delight yourself in the Lord." 

Another blogger stated it as being immersed in His word, finding the blessings around you, praising God for your current blessings, and seeking God daily.(I'm sorry, I don't remember where I found this blogger.)

 Then, I started to find verses talking about singing praises to God and being joyful in Him. This confirmed for me that in order to be delightful in the Lord, I need to focus on the blessings He has already given me. So, this is what I found in my studying... The more I focus on God the more I will be in His will; when I am in His will then His desires will be my desires. Then, I will receive His blessings. BECAUSE even when we have it all planned out on our calendars, God's calendar is BIGGER and BETTER. :)

THEN I came across this verse in 2 Samuel...

It says that God delighted in me! When I read this I realized that my sovereign, omnipotent, awesome, God of the universe chose to delight in a man who was in His will. Even more amazing that God's grace covers us in love and He delights in His people. IF God can delight in me, then surely I can find time to delight in Him.   

(Just a personal reflection I wanted to share) 

Change of course

The funny thing about a journey is that no matter how well planned or organized the trip, sometimes a detour or change of course takes place.

Lance and I have been discussing our options the past couple of months. Our heart is still open to adoption, but we also have the desire to be parents to biological child/children. Since this desire is so great and we haven't exhausted all efforts with the specialist; we have decided to suspend our home from foster care for a little while and pursue seeing the fertility doctor once again.

I write this post to ask for prayers as we go through this process. We don't know what will occur or what will come from these doctor visits.

Living in a Shoe

A month ago I decided to do respite for two brothers; 7 and 5 years old. Whew! That's about all I can say. A friend at church even brought to mind the nursery rhyme:

"There was an old lady who lived in a shoe,

She had so many children she didn't know what to do."

That's what I felt like for 7 days. Don't get me wrong, I brought it upon myself by not saying no. However, I learned two things: 1. I can do it (for a week at least). 2. God is my rock! Lance happened to be working that week, so it was me and God (just like that Josh Turner song).

Now we are back down to 2. And I know a little more of what to do. We have been busy these past two months. I just felt the need to post since November is Adoption Awareness month.

I don't want to go into detail for the privacy of the twins, but please pray for them. Their life has been an emotional roller-coaster for the past month and a half. It not only affects their well being, but other aspects of their lives.

Here are a few pictures of our fall fun (that we manage to squeeze in)!

 Pumpkin Patch games

 Carving Pumpkins

 One for a ninja and one for a gypsy